Marathon

Training for the Mayor's Marathon,

All things come to an end...

I am moving forward with my life. The past 8 months I have learned a lot about people and a ton about myself. I have overcome so much over the past 5 years. I will never let anyone knock me down like that again. I love my life and I know this happened for a reason.

these tears sting the sharpest...

I am hurt. Post cancer, I have learned to never give up, an attribute to being a cancer survivor. I can't just let go and not make another attempt at something. I have aimed to fix something that I had to work on, but the other half let go, and now I'm floating away. 

a little bit down...

I am learning from my mistakes every second I make them. I intend to improve on them as well. However I have confirmed that my book is pending for the copyright to "Patient..." my memoir! So stoked!

let down yet again...

I have to learn how to build a wall, that protects myself and other people from me being disappointed. I am fed up with people in my life, only considering and caring for themselves. it is disgusting how people are when it involves something they dont see or care to try to see. My interests and feelings are second to every single situation and point of view. I am not asking for my opinion and feelings to be rules or facts, but just to be heard and adjusted to. Noone cares. I have learned every one in this world, is strictly out for themselves. I am selfish in ways, but not when it comes to someone i love and care about. They actions and feelings are just as important as my own. I have grown up in that regard and continue to learn how more mature and advanced in certain views that i am now than i ever was before. My health is good, (knock on wood) and I have no more reasons to use that as an excuse. Health in any form, good or bad should not be an excuse. For some people its their alibi. sad